Last day of work

Today it was my last day of working, no more an allstar, one for all, all for one. Ni more red for me. No more arguing with passenger, or woke up in the middle of night to go to work. No more cheap ticket for me to go everywhere. Everything is come to an end and im the one who choose to end it. Because i had so much pain that i couldn't bear it anymore. From friendship. Relationship and family. Everything. And theres inside my heart saying that 'stop it chen'. Dont force the situation anymore. Go back to kk and be with ur family already. Whatever happen, you still have ur fmly to backup u. And so i end it. I send my resignation letter and puff. Goodbye aa. At first i do admit that i was felt a little bit of regret. I was thinking am i doing the right thing? Am i choosing the right decision? Will i able to find another job that will satisfy me. Will i ? God knows that the best for me. Im sorry mum for letting u down. Im sorry dad for quitting mg job. I just had so much that i couldn't bear it anymore. I need my family. Mana2 pun klau kita rajin. Mesti akn dpt cri rezeki jua kan ? :). And for my crush, i wont expect you treat me nicer, i give up too. I give up with you, with my feeling and i will ease it in time to time. Don't worry, i wont bother you with my text anymore. 1 step back from you. Im sorry for everything that i had done, for fell in love with you but don't have the courage to tell you. Im sorry for being a chicken with my own feelings. I wish you the best.  And may you find someone that much much better, that can make u happy :) amen. Its time for me to give up. Give up from expecting anything with everyone. Its time for me to chill down and relaks, i need a break from everything. It was so painful, and exhausting for keeping all this by myself. I wish ann was here, so that i can vent out everything with her. I wish tata was here to hug me. And i wanna cry on their shoulder. I just had ao much that i couldn't bear it anymore. I felt so weak towards everything. I felt likeI'm  alone in the world, facing my problem. Its time for me to step back from everything and chill myself first. Im crying while im blogging this post because I'm that sad that i couldn't bear this tear anymore.