Some sort of thought

There's a hole inside my heart and somehow it slowly started to heal.

What hurt us the most 

Each of us has our own personal awful past life. Some of us are strong enough to face it and some are way weak on fight for it. Some buried it deep deep down and some still let them linger and haunt them down. Which type of person are you ? Your heart must have a very good answer for it :) There's a friend of mine keep asking me on how I overcome all my problem, moving on in a relationship and etc. I'm laughing indeed. Strong ? like seriously, I don't think so but everybody has their own perceptive right. Maybe yeah I am strong . *Can't believe I just admit that* 

Honest speaking, I would say that my history is what molded me into the person I am today. Nobody or anybody can run away from getting an awful past history but trust me, our history that will shape us, guides us into a better person.  Everybody has their own choice whether wanted to let themselves falling back into a big hole or take a step ahead and find a way to something new. Your call then :) . I motivated myself almost everyday and as a human being, I admit that I do been pulled by my memories, lingering in my past. But eventually, I managed to pull myself out from that hole with the helping friend of mine. We have a choice on overcome our problem and ask for me, being WEAK is not my option nor my choice. :)

People tend to asked me on how did I get up from every single obstacles that came throughout my life. And that's the reason why I am here, facing my computer and started to wrote. How I deal w/ it ? What I can say is that 'No one say it's easy to rise again and no one say it's hard to rise again'. It's you yourself whom shape it. Force yourself to accept the fact and always believe that in the end, everything will be fine. Motivation is another way to guides us on rise from fall. 

Always believe that everything happen for a reason, and it's true indeed . Hence like it or not, we as a human being have no choice but to accept it. Not forgotten that everyone has their own scar that marked on their heart, so do I . Learn to move on . There's no point in dragging yourself onto depression. Always take a babystep to lies ahead into something new. 'tidak susah jadi susah, tidak senang jadi senang' but we have to. Don't get yourself stuck and let your past haunt you . oh mai . please don't.

Smile is the best cure, I tell you. Previously I can tell that I was marked as 'cengeng girl' among my family and so as my friend. And being that kind of girl, whom know nothing but to cry does not help a bite in overcome any problem. Indeed yes cry is good to vent out all our unhappiness felling but ask yourself , is your tears gonna help you ?  We can cry but don'f forget that smile do help us to vent out our happiness too :) . I admitted that at some point, I can't helped myself from putting tear on my face wherever I'm facing any hard situation no matter love nor family problem. Nonetheless I always know the limit of my tears. Don't make it continuously.

God never leave us, God never leave you . bare it :)

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