Tell me goodbye

bye not goodbye . 
start dha aq mrepek bnda yg xtntu neh..

Today n after today , 
i will pretend , acting like no more you in my life,
giving a fake smile , stand up and say that 
I'M OKAYH !! .n_n
but inside , no one would ever no how much ints hurt n hurt . 
its keep bleeding , just becoz of you , 
do you ever know it ?? 
NO!! u dun even want to know it . 

huhu . msa aq kna rgut ... you the only one that i hope i can tell, i can cry on your shoulder , 
and yes , you care bout me like i want, but not like before, huh , i mean not like as before when we couple..
weird rite . huhuhuhu
 chen! be strong !

the sad thing is you dun even care me everyday
you only will ask me when i'm texting wif you.
huh . 
I'M HURTING OKAYY !!
but what can i do ...
except cry . . .. 

seriusly . I GIVE UP WITH THIS ALL FUCKING THING .
i'm sick of being hurt, but i still can't help myself from stop loving you
do you KNOW IT !!
YOU DON'T KNOW IT coz YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO KNOW IT !!
i know . i can feel it . 
i hate you...but...i love you..
still like before...


GOD...please help me..
please give me strengh ..