What my mind now

I know I know.

I am so rarely blogging.

what I can say now is that

a lot of thing happened recently.

and I don't know where I should start from.

speaking about myself.

I nearly fall w/ this guy . 

thanx god I manage to avoid it.

don't get me wrong there, the strong reason why I'm avoiding him is because

he's just making me as an option . 

and I so much hate to think about it . 

and now if you ask me if I'm still like him .

the answer is NO.

Moving on . 

I don't get it. why is it so hard for a guy to stick w/ one person, one love in a time .

I mean is that so hard to be a loyalty person ? no right .

but why certain guy hardly do that ? 

guy . girl is not a thing . 

bared it on your mind . 

If you can't love her, then leave her with a proper way, b/c some other guy

will love her better than you.

don't hurt her . you don't have any idea how painful is it to be suffering . 

urm .

Another part of that, there some guy

find it''s fun playing fool around the girls heart . 

what I'm saying is that 

giving her hope, making her feel so special, make her feel like you like her 

and the nest day puff!

you're gone !

like nothings happen yesterday,

all your kindness, sweetness is just disappear .

whoa that's cruel.

ohh well 

karma is exist right and sure it will bitching you .

fair enough huh . 

and when the days come, you don't have any ideas how suffer you will . 

I can tell that . 

urgh I said so much crap here . 

ohh well maybe I should go to sleep . err did I just said sleep ? 

Almost forgot to said that my insomnia is getting worst . 

God help me !

I need some meditation . 

seriously . I do really need sleeping pill where I can just sleep anytime I want right after I eat that pill . 

I bet it's fun . 

hehe . 

and now my screen clock pointing to 12.33 am . 

sleepy ? NO! I don't feel sleepy at all . 

you well done chenchen . 

okay seriously . I have to sleep .

goodnight people . 

xoxoes 

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