My past and future life

Dear blogger,

Im gonna live my life,

Like everyday is the last

without a simple goodbye

It all goes by so fast

and now that you'r gone

I cant cry hard enuff

For you to hear me now.

Gonna open my eyes 

to someone more better.

I know there's gonna be someone that will

wipe my tears

It just a matter of time.

the other day,

seeing you stand infront of me.

making me insane

all the memory which I though I had delete

is coming back

playing in my mind

litle by litle.

and it driving me crazy.

How I wish all that just a dream.

but the fact is

you are standing infront of me

for real.

and we're acting like

totally stranger.

no more 'hye'

no more 'smile'

no more you

for ever and ever.

perhaps this is how its end

yes its pain but my friends once told me that

pain and hurt is part of our life.

so face it with a brave smile young girl

act like you dont care

pretend like you are okay even thou it is not

sometimes all that can help us to be more stronger.

yesterday gonna be yesterday

Past should be history

What I should do is

moving on to someone better

seeing 

searching

waitin for someone out there

that can take a good care 

with my heart

not a good care act

but really good

good enuf to make me stay for future him for ever.

wonder who

wonder if my mr right gonna love me like I do

frank

I dont know

but what I pray and hope is

I'm gonna meet someone who worth for me

someone who 

....................

love me for what I am

accept me for the real me.

take good care of me.

Askin for regred

Im not regred for losing my ex

having that condition

because theres always be million why 

it had happen 

or should happen

Dont ever cry because it end

but be grateful coz 

it once happened.

now only I understand the meaning.

the deep meaning of that phrases

I should say

thank you for those who once make me cry

who once make me fall,

because they who had teach me to face the hurt

teach me that life is not just about *laugh* for 24/7

sometimes we should cry .

haha

perhaps

Now I proundly say that

I am strong

maybe not 100 %

but at least 50 %

thats what I should be proud of

sometimes 

I do miss the late call of someone who I used to call

boyfriend

calling 

texting all that what a couple should do.

I miss all that

Im kinda insane for saying all this stupid word

sorry for the bad grammer and spelling.

haha

BE WITH NO ONE IS BETTER THAN BE WITH THE WRONG ONE.

thats was fucking truth

be with the wrong one is like

wasting your time

giving your heart with someone

shitty is so not real

so not good

because

in any time

any minute

any day 

he/she might hurt you 24/7

and for that time

no one gonna help you except youself.

whoa..

cant believe I can wrote this long word yea

act there still so much I wanna share

wanna wrote

but all that was like

pop up in my mind

but hard to describe with word

or should I saw

unspoken word.

hermmm

whatsoever la 

bebeh.

Now

Im happy with my life

as a single .

I might feel lonely sometimes

but like I say before

be with the wrong one is so not fuck real.

HAHA.

for my future boyfriend

which I dont know who.

I hope you may love me, accept me.

What I really seek is

a long lasting relationship.

*lookin forward with that*

ohkee

thats it for today.

Lots of love

Chen

Muah!